May,I miss your passionately appealing gazings
and soul—communicating glances which once so overwhelmed
and in gratiated me.Suppose I die suddenly tomorrow
morning.Suppose I change my heart and love
somebody else,what then would you feel and what
would you do?These are very cruel supposition.I
know,but all the same I can′t help making them,such
being the lover′s psychology.
Do you know what would I have done if in my coming
back,I should have found my love no longer mine!
Try and imagine the situation and tell me what you
think.①
眉,醒起来,眉,起来,你一生最重要的交关已经到门了,你再不可含糊,你再不
可因循,你成人的机会到了,真的到了。他已经把你看作泼水难收,当着生客们的面前,
尽量的羞辱你;你再没有志气,也不该犹预了;同时你自己也看得分明,假如你离成了,
决不能再在北京耽下去。我是等着你,天边去,地角也去,为你我什么道儿都欣欣的不
踌躇的走去。听着:你现在的选择,一边是苟且暖昧的图生,一边是认真的生活;一边
是肮脏的社会,一边是光荣的恋爱;一边是无可理喻的家庭,一边是海阔天空的世界与
人生;一边是你的种种的习惯,寄妈舅母,各类的朋友,一边是我与你的爱。认请楚了
这回,我最爱的眉呀,“差以毫厘,谬以千里”,“一失足成千古恨”,你真的得下一
个完全自主的决心,叫爱你期望你的真朋友们,一致起敬你才好呢!
眉,为什么你不信我的话,到什么时候你才听我的话!你不信我的爱吗?你给我的
爱不完全吗?为什么你不肯听我的话,连极小的事情都不依从我——倒是别人叫你上哪
儿你就梳头打扮了快走。你果真是我,不能这样没胆量,恋爱本是光明事。为什么要这
样子偷偷的,多不痛快。
眉,要知道你只是偶尔的觉悟,偶尔的难受,我呢,简直是整天整晚的叫忧愁割破
了我的心。O May!love me;give me all your love,let us become one;try to l
ive into my love for you,let my love fill you,nourish you,caress your dar
ing body and hug your daring soul too;let my love stream over you,merge y
ou thoroughly,let me rest happy and confident in your passion for me!①